I am a bad friend. Which I guess in turn loosely translates to I am a bad person. No, I am not having a sudden low in self-esteem or whatever. The first sentence stems out of what this.
I have lost two friends whom I knew and who knew me very well in the last month or so. I am constantly fighting with and almost losing two more friends of the same kind. I am not in touch with anyone from college or school. I claim my sister is my best friend, but its ages since I talked to her properly. All in all I have enough points to believe in the first two statements J
Maybe I was always like this. Maybe I am like this now. But I know all of the above friendships are losing out on the value of friendship because me and what I am as a person. They have been nice, super nice to me. And I have been selfish. A friend I met through the blogs whose insanity I adored, my best friend who knows everything there could be to know about me………I have lost them both.
And I am creating enough trouble to be losing two more people I value a lot, my first blog friend who had known me for 4 years and been with all this time and someone who knows me for just about a year but who has been there for me the most!!
I don’t know what in me has made me lose out on these people. I am demanding too much. I am sorry.
Not getting close to anyone in the future. I don’t want to hurt or disappoint anyone.
Acquaintances only. Better for health :)
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6 comments:
You are a good person who 2 years ago helped me in a similar situation. So lady get up walk upto your friends and talk to them. They would rather have you than not have you, wouldn't they.
Take care Divs
time is a healer :)
acquaintances only? that doesn't help....
Sometimes it takes months or even years for me and my best friend to communicate with each other. But still, we are best friends.
Hi
Came here through Anks' blog. Read all your stories from the old blog. Liked them all.
Keep writing.
As for this post - I don't know if I can comment here. I have mostly led a nomadic life - made a lot of friends and in course of time lost them too. By now I think I have taken it for granted. Does that make me a bad frined too?
hi dear... as we get more involved in fighting life... we close ourselves..shutting down because we don'rt have time and sometimes are afraid we will get hurt... life goes on dear.. we have to re-learn to find the joys in little things like when it was so easy when we were kids...
an old friend - Sadik
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